The End

Dishonesty

Who can you trust when you can’t trust or rely on yourself.
I’ve completely failed.
Everything I thought I would be I’m not.
Everyone I thought I would be around I’m not.
I’m the most dishonest person I know.
I’m dishonest with my thoughts and feelings.

Pain

This pain I feel brings me back to memories of childhood.
I remember not understanding why I was feeling so much pain.
Ironically, I finally understand and it hurts even more.
I can’t stop feeling hurt and don’t know what to do.
This pain is taking over so much that it’s numbing.
I could give up right now and be okay with it.
I’ve failed to encompass the reality of my dreams.
I’m in so much pain that I no longer dream.
I now only have nightmares. Anguishing, painful, nightmares.
My nightmares have been come true. My worst fears are now my reality.
My pain is not just a dream to be awoken from but my daily existence.

Destruction

This is what I dream of. It seems more accessible than my past.
I’m heading there and this is what seems achievable.
How hard could it be. It’s all I see.
Nothing seems right.
I leave in pain and freight.
I want to hurt myself. It seems like the only thing that will work.
It goes hand in hand with my dishonesty and pain.
Dishonesty and pain might equal my gain. The reality and dreams that I’ve been looking for.
I’ve been searching and searching, and searching…..
And now everything I believed in is in vain.

By: Sasha No Longer Fierce